Why can't I just relax?
I used to be able to go for a massage and just shut down for that half hour, 45 minutes or whole hour (however long I chose to pamper myself). My mind would wander with the soothing, yet un-intrusive music and I would be lulled into submission. Usually nearly falling asleep and feeling like it hadn't lasted long enough.
On Monday I went for another massage and noticed that my trend of not being able to relax unforunately is still on.
It was only 30 minutes and I layed there thinking how long is this going to take...shouldn't the 30 minutes be up yet, it feels like I've been laying here forever. I have a million things to do. That's when I thought to myself, why can't you just relax and take this 30 minutes for yourself. Where no one can get ahold of you, there's no work to do, no one has an urgent crisis or drama to rehash with me, nothing exists but me and person who is making my back feel better.
As much as I tried to just let it go, I couldn't.
Hopefully I'll be able to let go of everything when I board that plane next Tuesday. If sitting on a beach staring out at the ocean doesn't clear my mind and relax me then I'm pretty sure nothing will except for some sweet medication!
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Oh, I SO feel you on this one. My head feels like it is on auto-pilot all the time, and there is nothing I can do to slow it down. Please have a big, fruity, heavily-laded-with-alcohol beverage for me while you are in Hawaii!
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