Introspective

I started to contemplate some things as I sat listening to the whirring, and beeps that filled the darkened corridors. The gurgle of the humidifier. The smell of latex assaulting my nostrils. Watching the glow of the television dancing across his face.

Tonight was the first night since his accident that I actually got to spend some time alone with Peaches. And it was nice to just sit with him and talk.

I sat there in the darkened room, listening to the steady breathing of his roommate behind the curtain, thinking how quickly things can change.

Of course those thoughts got me thinking of my aunt and how quickly the cancer raced through her body. It still hits me like a tonne of bricks that I will never see her again. I think it will only truly sink completely in when I make it back Down Under and she's not there to welcome me "home".

Added up it's definitely making me see life through slightly different eyes. I'm still being a silly workaholic, and I know that I need to get things back on track with big brother, but I'm starting to think bigger picture. I want to make sure I do some of the things that I've always dreamed of doing.

With Peaches it's also becoming easier to verbalize things. Although maybe it's things that don't need to be said yet. He's changed, and is being a more considerate person and we are still on track with our honesty to one another.

I think my time in the QC is drawing to a close but I don't think I'm ready for the City of Bridges just yet. I'm not sure where life is going to take me, but wherever I go a part of Peaches is going with me.